It’s almost 5 am. I couldn’t sleep so I came on here. I was thinking of making a YouTube video for my rather sad YouTube channel but as usual my thoughts are too scattered for that. I had three subscribers for my channel, but it dropped back down to two. My YouTube channel sucks so I will not link to it here. There really isn’t much there and I haven’t posted anything for over a year. I wanted to say something about conspiracy theory on there but – bleh – the very mention of the phrase “conspiracy theory” makes people tune out – as it was designed to. None of my other five or so videos ever brought up conspiracy theory. The other videos were talking about being an empath and Myers-Briggs stuff.
So I watch another YouTube channel called Quantum of Conscience, where a guy named Matt who has been on the conspiracy train for quite some time tries to make sense of the world. His latest video was talking about how it is completely pointless to talk to people about “conspiracy theory” because they will almost always shut you down or tune you out, disappear, run the other way, get angry, change the subject, etc. This has very much been my experience as well. So on his channel he doesn’t talk as much about actual “conspiracy” any more as much as he tries to figure out what the next step is – yes, a person can travel down the conspiracy railroad for a long enough time to realize that we’re being lied to about almost everything – but then what?
Why do we, the “conspiracy theorists” realize this stuff that no one else sees or is interested in? What should we do with this information?
And calling us “conspiracy theorists” is an insult – it’s meant to marginalize us and make us seem crazy and….meh.
Anyway, if my husband at least got it that would be awesome – but I don’t even have him as an outlet for this kind of discussion. He thinks my interest in these types of subjects is a joke and makes me feel like a joke for having these interests.
I think it’s time to move to the next level. What does that mean? Why so many lies? We’ll probably never understand that. Maybe we should all focus on the positive but I don’t know, that just seems like another kind of brain washing tactic to keep everyone placated and docile.
All I know is that failing to express myself is not working for me. But expressing myself can drive the few people that are in my life away.
That’s the latest and not so greatest.
So should I try to find some picture of the twin towers falling for better blog appeal?