Plant Paradox Gut Buddy Update

I probably should be more diligent and follow the Plant Paradox diet perfectly before I write anything in here?  Anyhoo – my blog has never been very thorough or informative, so why start now?

I have tried to eliminate most of the things that the Plant Paradox diet suggests that you eliminate – with a few lapses here and there.  I have been incorporating more cruciferous veggies into my diet.  Mostly just raw cabbage and saurkraut, and mushrooms.  Mushroom broth is da bomb.

I have to say that there is something to this thing about all disease – including those considered mental illnesses – starting in the gut.

I have had a lot more energy and been in a better mood lately.  Good gut bacteria make you happy.  Bad gut bacteria make you sad.

Bacteria rule the world!!

Here is a happy song that reflects my mood at the moment.


100 Days of Consecutive Meditation

Yep, I made it to 100 days today.  In December I cut back the time from 20 minutes to 10 minutes because I found that I was losing my mojo for the full 20 minutes.  Actually, I start the clock at a 12 minute countdown because it takes a bit to get settled in to a more focused meditative state, if what I do actually qualifies as that – ha.

I had been getting up first thing in the morning and sitting in a chair next to my bed, but found myself resisting this too as it was becoming colder with winter days.  So now I sit upright, cross-legged in my bed with my legs covered by blankets and my spine straightened out.  Yes, kind of wussy, but whatever I can do to keep me from talking myself out of the habit helps.  The added benefit of this is that it is forcing me to have better posture.  At first my back was feeling strained by the end of it, but now it’s not really that noticeable.  Does that sound wussy?  Try sitting cross legged in an upright position for a while.  You’ll find out how good your posture is then.  Hopefully it is better than mine.

What other benefits has meditation provided?  I guess I just feel more emotionally balanced.  I used to have higher highs and lower lows, but now I find myself more in the middle of the emotional scale.  Meditation = Prozac?

To keep my mind focused, I still often count odd numbers backward.  That keeps my brain occupied enough to prevent any long trains of thought from slipping their way in.  I also repeat the mantra in my head sometimes “I’m sorry.  Please forgive me.  Thank you.  I love you.”  You spiritual people out there probably know where that one comes from.

Other than that…what else…I’m sure I’ll think of something more after I post this.

I think I need to start incorporating imagining what I want for my future into the process somehow.  I need to get that law of attraction working for me on a daily basis since I’ve got this daily habit going on already anyway right?  Now if I could just get some clarity on what I really want.

Law of attraction, law of attraction – it’s just so easy to completely forget about the law of attraction, isn’t it?

Happy New Year Everyone!!

Losing Faith in My Ability to Change

That’s a bummer of a title isn’t it?

It’s 2019 and there are a lot of things that I would like to change about my life.  It’s been that way for a long time.  However, I haven’t really changed any of these things in any significant way.

I think that a big reason for this is that I have a warped view of who I should be that tries to ignore who I really am.

I feel like I should be more social.  But when it comes right down to it, I don’t really enjoy being social.  Perhaps this is because the majority of social interaction is inauthentic or pointless or perhaps it is because I just don’t enjoy social interaction.  I am one of those weird recluse type people and I just need to embrace that aspect of myself and stop feeling like I’m in some way inadequate?

There are other aspects of myself that I could talk about in this regard but this post already sounds Debbie Downer enough.

What do I really want?  What is going to make me happy?  I need to evaluate these things carefully before I jump into setting a bunch of goals that I don’t really want to achieve.

Autoimmune Disease and Diet? Wrinkly Hands and More!!


Hmm, if you are just stopping by for a quick glance over – a drive by blog read of sorts – if you suspect that you have some sort of autoimmune condition, I would check out the book The Plant Paradox by Dr. Steven Gundry.

If you want to hear about my story, which is ongoing.  Then read on folks.

Hello Everyone!  So it seems I am on a lifelong quest to figure out my mysterious health problems.  BLEH!  Who wants mysterious health problems?  Not me.

So My hands have probably looked like this for a decade perhaps?  I never gave it much thought until I had to notarize something.  In order to notarize something you have to leave your thumbprint in a book with lots of other people’s thumbprints.  My thumbprint was the wrinkliest, most pathetic looking of them all.  I was like WTF?  I was only probably 35 ish at the time.  I feel like my health and vitality have slowly been declining and I can’t really pinpoint why.  My blood tests always come up in the normal range for things like thyroid, etc.  I don’t really trust mainstream doctors because many of my health problems seem to have started with standard medical interventions.  I could go into a long description of that, but I don’t have the mojo for it right now.  Perhaps another day.

At any rate, these wrinkled hands could all be related to a larger health issue that causes fatigue, cold body temp, especially cold hands, slow digestion, zero libido, etc.  A larger health issue that of course I haven’t figured out yet.  When I go outside in dry or cold weather my hands start to look almost mummified.  It’s not so pretty.

So I’ve been researching and researching and watching a lot of foolios on YouTube who try crazy diets and also people who don’t seem quite as foolio-tastic.  And I came across someone who seemed to have all the answers.  Don’t they all?

And I haven’t solved my problems, the wrinkly hands, etc, but I thought I would share with you a new source of information on it all that maybe one or two of you with similar issues might like to investigate.  This is just an investigation recommendation – I haven’t exactly bought into this yet.  But…

Dr. Steven Gundry wrote a book called The Plant Paradox.  It proposes the idea that the lectins in some of the foods that are considered “healthy” may actually be damaging our gut and interfering with insulin receptors, thus causing insulin resistance and weight gain.  There is much more to the story of course.  Dr. Gundry also talks about GMO foods, the pesticide Roundup, and how “Roundup Ready” GMO crops could be contributing to an epidemic of autoimmune disease.

I’m about halfway through the book.  A lot of the “health foods” that he identifies as high in lectins are of course my favorite foods.  Womp womp.  And this Roundup crud is in practically everything we eat.  Ugh.

So, what foods does he identify as high in lectins?  I will list only a few as there are many on his list.

(This is from page 209 of The Plant Paradox)

Here are some less surprising ones: pasta, rice, potatoes, potato chips, milk, bread, tortillas, pastry, flour, crackers, cookies, cereal, sugar, agave, sweet one or Sunett(Acesulfame K), Splenda (sucralose), Nutrasweet (aspartame), Sweet ‘n Low (saccharin), diet drinks, maltodextrin

Here are some foods that we usually consider healthy that are more surprising:

Vegetables: peas, sugar snap peas, legumes, green beans, chickpeas, soy, tofu, edamame, soy protein, textured vegetable protein

Fruits: cucumbers, zucchini, pumpkins, squashes, melons, eggplant, tomatoes, bell peppers, chili peppers, goji berries


He proposes a diet that would be rather hard for the average person to follow.

But they say what is happening with your skin is probably what is happening inside your body – your digestive system – your circulatory system – your brain.  My hands really don’t look so good when you look at it that way.

Why can’t achieving optimum health be less complicated?

Pick a Topic, Any Topic, Just NOT That Topic – Marital Woes

So the extra observant among you may have noticed that I don’t seem super excited about my marriage.

When one starts complaining about one’s marriage, however, it inevitably turns into creating a good guy and a bad guy and assembling teams of people on both sides.  Meh.

It also makes your blog a dangerous place to be discovered by the enemy.

And yes, I shouldn’t refer to the spouse as “the enemy” should I?

I think a lot of my marital problems stem from my health/anxiety problems and…maybe I am just making excuses for myself because it’s all in my head.  I can beat myself up about this all day and that accomplishes nothing.  But many if not most of these problems do not stem from this source.  They come from much deeper seated issues, rifts in our value systems.

I don’t want to be the enemy.  I don’t want to make my husband into the enemy.

I don’t have any great wisdom to share here.  It would be nice if life were black and white – well, actually it probably wouldn’t be, but the shades of grey make everything so damn confusing.

I am not feeling very empathic these days.

Thanks for stopping by.  🙂

Optimal Health – Where do I find that?

I often get big notions in my head of things that I will accomplish.  I work toward these goals a bit only to remember that my energy level and ability to focus are very much less than optimum.  I get stressed out easily and…find myself crashing fairly often.

Going to my mainstream doctor has proven useless or detrimental to my health in many cases.  Going to an alternative doctor seems ridiculous when we are forced to pay so much for our health care premiums for standard health care.

The United States health care system is pretty much a total piece of crap.  There I said it.  A person could write volumes about this but I don’t intend to do that.

At any rate I found myself a new online health care guru.  Everything he says makes so much sense to me.  I won’t link to him because, well, I haven’t gotten myself to optimum health yet with his advice.  In fact I seem to have moved backward in that arena for the time being.  Perhaps that is only because I am detoxing?

And it’s not like I have been living la vida loca or anything – Partying?  ha.  Drinking?  What’s that?  I am pretty nun-like in my lifestyle for the most part.  Although I am guilty of eating too much candy once in a while.  Salt and vinegar chips?  Yes please.

But that’s where I’m at right now.  At the moment I am trying to get my digestive system up to par.  It’s been pretty sluggish for a long time now, despite all of my recent vegetable eating.

But Mr. Health Guru – he looks at the whole system and tries to figure out where the failure point is – and how that leads to some other failure point and yadda yadda yadda….it’s complicated, but he is simplifying it for me to some extent.

It’s frustrating that my husband can eat whatever he wants for the most part without having any problems.  But for me?  Not so much.

Life is not fair.  Duh.  But I do live in America – so – bonus – despite our crap health care system.


Update: 40 Days of Consecutive Meditation

This is not a super impressive number but I thought I would add an update nonetheless.

Is meditation changing my life?  Sort of?  Maybe?

I don’t know if it’s the meditation so much as committing yourself to any daily/weekly/monthly practice that lets the metaphysical wheels of the universe know that you are not just messing around anymore.

Just within the last two weeks, struggles that I have had with my husband have become somewhat easier.  He is being more cooperative and seeing things more from my perspective without my usual often fruitless efforts to bend him to my will.

It’s about co-creating with the energies that surround us.  Do I really believe this?  Sort of.

I feel like the train of my life has derailed in a lot of ways and it’s hard to move a derailed train back onto the tracks.  Is it even possible without a lot of help.  Perhaps that is the key element that I am missing.  Outside help?

I was thinking of going to a local Buddhist temple where they have public meditations twice a week.  I went there once.   It was a very nice place with beautiful grounds.  But it felt limiting.  You must go there with a very subdued mindset and follow the traditions with a level of respect and…it just felt like another trap to me?  Not a place where I could be myself but just another place where I have to fit into a role.  I am not really and avid nonconformist, but I feel like so many traditions are filled with lies and inauthenticity.

So when do I meditate?  I tend to wake up really early in the morning, not intentionally, I guess I go to bed too early so I often wake up around 3 or 4 am.  Then I have this nagging feeling that I should meditate as soon as possible or I will talk myself out of it or forget about it.  So I get up, put the timer on my tablet on for 20 minutes, and I’m off to the races.  This morning I was getting a very light spacey feeling during my meditation.  I still do the thing where I count backwards with odd numbers.  It seems to cleanse the brain palette whenever the sneaky thoughts creep in.

Early on it seems I was counting down the time until my 20 minutes were up.  Lately I have been enjoying the experience more and am surprised by the beeping of the timer when it goes off, rather than anticipating it.

With the weight of needing to meditate removed I usually go back to sleep for another hour or two.  If I get up that early I will want to go to bed super early and that’s not very productive.

Maybe the magical things start happening around day 50?  Ha.

Thanks for stopping by.